I have no clue..

I do not know what I have been doing lately
I do not know whether I was out of track..
or this is the thing that I should do
to move me from one point to another point

I do not regret anything
But I am wondering,
"Was it me?"
Yea, it was me
Me who was acting stupidly weird

How could I have done something like that?
But it was all good
I got the message
I know how it felt
I understand how bad it was
I am aware how stupid I was
I learn how dangerous it could be
and I could be

I am still in lala land
Even when I was sleeping,
so many things were around
So many voices stuffed my ears
The feeling sucked
I was imagining thousand conversations,
simultaneously
I talked loudly
No one was around

I do not want to wreck my brains
It is God's gift

What I could say right this moment is just...
Sorry to go through all this
I wish this is gonna be a lesson for me
It must be

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